Stand in Your Becoming: At the Edge of Whom You Were Meant to Be.

Throughout life, you will encounter people who bring you down, crush your spirit, and try to hold you back. Building confidence, resilience, and strong core beliefs allows your light to be seen.

Throughout my life, I’ve been gifted others’ perceptions of me.
They’ve said, “Jackie, you’re strong. A leader. A teacher. You’ve got a special energy—compassionate, empathetic.”

In my youth, I charged forward with confidence and rigour. I had two favourite personas.

One: a professional cheerleader with NCA — a versatile, coordinated, passionate athlete and mentor to youth.

Two: a certified Level 4 ski instructor who shares the joy of the winter holiday experience, cares deeply, and strategically challenges perceived limits.

From the outside, my confident persona looked like a powerhouse.

But over time, my life choices slowed my becoming. My first marriage imploded, and the immense responsibility of raising children hit me square in the nose. Choosing to stay home railroaded my professional growth. My confidence suffered. My personality took a few blows.

A 20-year marriage does not come without bumps. I survived the loss of loved ones and family medical trauma. In relationships, I have always trusted first — perhaps naively. I want to believe people have my best interests at heart. Yet I’ve endured bullying, degradation, and even an abusive, narcissistic boss. I’ve been downsized, laid off, fired. Passed over for promotions. Made to feel small.

I’ve reinvented myself more than once.

Ironically, over time, the voice inside my own head — my ego — began to stifle my light. But I refuse to be held down. Somewhere deep in my gut lives a dynamo — a wickedly wonderful human with talents, gifts, and knowledge waiting to be unleashed. Those toxic experiences could win… if I let them.

Now, at this age, I’m tired of the nagging doubt, the insecurity, and the limits — whether placed on me by others or by myself. I am standing at the edge of who I truly want to be.

Phuck it. And phuck them.

I will not let fear stand in my way any longer. Reclaiming my soul’s energy and competitive edge is my opportunity.

So here is how I began to bring her back.

Six Mindfulness Strategies to Reignite Your Light

Sit in silence for 15 minutes, free from distractions — no phone ringing, TV, or Netflix — and pay attention to your breath.

Gently move any sore or stiff parts of your body while continuing your breathwork practice.

If your mind wanders, count your inhalations and exhalations.

Throughout this mindfulness session, say out loud or silently, “I am resilient, strong, and I carry a unique light.”

Ask the universe to remind you of your gifts and to help you see the opportunities that may lie ahead.

Most importantly: take one step forward. Do the thing. Move toward your LIGHT.

This creates new, concrete evidence. Your soul feels this validation — the proof you’ve been needing.

Sending you light and love in your BECOMING.